Post by Mist on Sept 11, 2015 14:42:26 GMT
When your legs eye doesn't work like it used to do~~.
All joking aside. It's bad. The damage done to my eye seemed far more severe than the doctor originally thought. So, that complicates the surgery. Wich I will undergo within roughly two weeks from now.
I don't know what else to say. I'm frightened since it isn't possible to heal on its own from previous appointments.
For those of you who do not know what this is about; I was working on a construction site, but there wasn't any proper safety equipment. I had to operate a metal grinder and got shards of hot metal in my left eye. I dropped the powertool and it dug into my left leg. Normally, a powertool shuts down whenever there is no pressure on the 'on' switch due to safety measures. This was an older model and didn't work that way, it was locked in on or off, so, I had to pull it out of my leg. I recieved stitches and I'm currently walking with a crutch, aswell as I can't see anything through my left eye because of those shards. Initially they thought my eye could either heal on its own, get fixed or lost forever. Right now, it's down to fixed or lost forever.
Today I had another appointment with any specialist. Damage seems to be far more severe. Wich complicates the procedure.
I haven't recieved any measurements and it is not a critical operation. So I'm imagining it's fifty fifty win/lose ratio.
I am scared. I know what fear is, I thought I was gonna die a couple of weeks ago when I had that powertool in my leg.
That fear doesn't even come close to what I'm feeling now.
So, yeah. Don't expect me to be in the best of moods or to be active at all. Or to be very active, seeking distractions. I will not be grading as I will make mistakes, slip up and fuck up.
I'm not sure how I will be able to cope with the loss of my left eye. I'm not sure if I'm capable of doing that. Normally, I'd be optimistic, laugh it off etc.
But, I can't. Optimism faded. My spirit is quite literally in pieces now. Even keeping a simple train of thought is difficult enough as it is now.
I really love all of you guys,
Mist.
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All joking aside. It's bad. The damage done to my eye seemed far more severe than the doctor originally thought. So, that complicates the surgery. Wich I will undergo within roughly two weeks from now.
I don't know what else to say. I'm frightened since it isn't possible to heal on its own from previous appointments.
For those of you who do not know what this is about; I was working on a construction site, but there wasn't any proper safety equipment. I had to operate a metal grinder and got shards of hot metal in my left eye. I dropped the powertool and it dug into my left leg. Normally, a powertool shuts down whenever there is no pressure on the 'on' switch due to safety measures. This was an older model and didn't work that way, it was locked in on or off, so, I had to pull it out of my leg. I recieved stitches and I'm currently walking with a crutch, aswell as I can't see anything through my left eye because of those shards. Initially they thought my eye could either heal on its own, get fixed or lost forever. Right now, it's down to fixed or lost forever.
Today I had another appointment with any specialist. Damage seems to be far more severe. Wich complicates the procedure.
I haven't recieved any measurements and it is not a critical operation. So I'm imagining it's fifty fifty win/lose ratio.
I am scared. I know what fear is, I thought I was gonna die a couple of weeks ago when I had that powertool in my leg.
That fear doesn't even come close to what I'm feeling now.
So, yeah. Don't expect me to be in the best of moods or to be active at all. Or to be very active, seeking distractions. I will not be grading as I will make mistakes, slip up and fuck up.
I'm not sure how I will be able to cope with the loss of my left eye. I'm not sure if I'm capable of doing that. Normally, I'd be optimistic, laugh it off etc.
But, I can't. Optimism faded. My spirit is quite literally in pieces now. Even keeping a simple train of thought is difficult enough as it is now.
I really love all of you guys,
Mist.
