Picking Up the Good [Gage]

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Nessa took a final drag on her post-coital cigarette and then stubbed it out on the nightstand next to her. She rubbed her eye blearily. Well, that had been... Something at least. Gage wasn't a slacker in bed, she mused to herself as he got dressed. Hmm, so it had finished being built already? When she promised to heal his arm she had... Kind of expected a little more time. She had to learn the damn kido in the first place. As Gage got himself up and dressed, Vanessa scoffed. He expected her to go anywhere without a shower now did he? Yeah right. Oh, it seemed that he'd need to put the insides together before he could do anything. Well that made her feel a bit better at least.

"Yeah... No. I'm going for a shower." she said, blithely. She sighed. Eurgh, he would probably have male bodywash and she'd end up smelling like diesel for the next few days. And... The horror! Did men even condition!? She shuddered. "I don' need food. I'll catch you up." she said, before sauntering off in the buff to wash herself. She found a towel in an obvious place and hung it up when she got in the shower. It was a good job she'd shaved her legs a couple days ago, she mused. She washed and was surprised that he did have conditioner. It was store brand which made her grumble but as she rubbed it onto her hair the smell overcame her.

That was right. This was the brand she had bought when she worked at the Super Yuki north of town. The smell overcame her. She had... Almost certainly lost that job by now. She wondered how her co-workers were doing. She felt a small wrenching in her gut. Did she... Genuinely miss them? She thought of Alex, too, and felt the copper tang of guilt. They had been kind of going a little steady and yet here she was, fucking other guys just because she felt like it. She washed the conditioner out, troubled as much by her own frame of mind as by what she'd done.

"You're pathetic. Why don't you grow a fucking spine and stop denying yourself what you want just because of pathetic people like them." her zanpakuto spirit spat in her head. Nessa rolled her eyes. As succinct and personable as ever, Yousei. She towelled herself off, before wrapping another towel around her head to dry her hair off. She dressed and ventured back through the house towards the workshop where they had been before.

"Yo." she said flatly. "I'll need some time to work on the Healing kido. So don't expect me to fix you right now, or anything." she said, just to let him know. Gage would find no sudden affection or gentleness from Nessa.

heavy is the Hole in my heart